Love love love

Soon it will be the month of LOVE.... February is the month of love with Valentines Day, and the coming of spring. We are looking for renewed life and happiness. Bring on the reason to keep it the month of love. I would love to give my honey and family something great. Even if it is a great evening with a fantastic meal. I want to be able to give my parents anything they would want for this month too. They are so funny, (my parents). I was laughing today to see them so much in love after so many years of up and down. They make me smile to see them smile and laugh as they talk about the love they have after 64 years of marrage. I have had so much fun watching them recently. I think it is because they are enjoying everyday.

They teach me how to enjoy the love I have in my life.

What a wonderful life I live

Again being very thankful for everything we have and our to receive in the future I find myself in tears. As I watch my Beautiful Grandson Brian and wonderful husband Frank sit on the couch as Brian plays a WII game and the music is so relaxing. I know you think a game with relaxing music. Actually it is...

Another week of getting things done and praying for the dentist to call with a cancellation. If not I will wait. Waiting is my specialty. Although I have many who will debate that fact. I feel it is. I want a lot and I worked what I think is the biggest share of my life and I have given away or paid for more than I have gotten. Just like the next person...

I never consider myself different than anyone else. I just have a different opinion at times. And unfortunately I share that opinion. When I should keep my mouth shut. But If you do not tell people how do they know how you feel.

I do feel my life is wonderful. I have wonderful parents and family. Yes I get upset with them but they have their opinion and I have mine.

Another Drama

We had quite an experience last week with my parents having a visit from the Department of Human Services. To our amazement some within the family took it upon themselves to complaint about the way they was getting medication. Needless to say I know it was an attack on me. To know that someone would put our parents through so much because they was upset with me. I really feel a person that does something like that needs to apologize to them. I stayed with our parents several days before trying to stop my mom from working herself to the bone and making herself sick. Then our dad he was sick for a week now several days before and know he is still suffering. They said they would not take them off to a nursing home but I have found out the report will always be there and if anything else every happens (like falling in the house and hurting themself) it would be brought back to light again. It could even leave to them getting an autopsy after death if they have any reason to think neglect was in affect.

That really turns my stomach to think they would put there own parents through something like this. Now that I know who called I feel an apology is called for. They might not of called but they gave the information for them to call. What was they thinking. All I know is now that I have choices.

Saving my Sanity

The stress of not knowing is always a stress er, but once you have the answer things don't always seem so bad. I had a simple question that someone would not answer so I looked for the answer myself. I found the answer, and darn it is was the answer I thought it was.... But for my own sanity I knew I had to know.
Some people might think that is lame but I knew I needed to know who could by the the thought of not thinking could upset the life of two people that done nothing to them but always be there. They did not think of what you should always think of and they are called consequences. I try to always think of the who what when and were's of my actions. My actions are mine and no one elses. I do not blame you for what I have done or not done in my life. I always say everyone has the same opportunities some take them some don't. I try to grab opportunity and be the boss of it in my like.
I amd happy with my life. I love my family and I love what I am doing. Yes, I have wishes and hope like everyone else. I pray eveyday for God to give me strength and purpose and I am glad to say he is always with me.

January Thaw

I am really waiting for the birds chirping and the sun shinning everyday. I want to be able to take a ride and not think about the weather. I like everyother person in this weather... I feel trapped. But that is what Ohio does for us makes us feel trapped. I want to take my parents for the trip of a lifetime. Get them the heck out of here. Away from all the wonders of what is gona happen next. I want to take my husband with us and my kids too to have fun, laugh, so hard we cry, cry so hard we pee our pants.....

Can you imagen having that much fun with people you love so much. To put your arms around someone and hug them so hard you can feel their heart beat. Know that the next time they breath you will be breathing with them. I love loving people I feel the love you give and recieve is the best love in this world. I can remember when I fell in love with Frank. My gosh it is the best feeling in the world a feeling of knowing that the person you are with is everything to you. I can not explain falling in love other than you know when it is the right person.

Why do people hurt the ones they love the most. Because they always understand, "I am sorry."